Sorry about last night, drinking doesn't really solve any problems ^^' but besides that I'm feeling alright I just need to remeber there always is a future... so I'm doing things to sort that out,

I've decided to see the student councelers about my problems, my eatting (or lack of it), my inabilty to form bonds with new people, and my riseing anger levels. Besides that I honestly will put up some new photos soon-ish I may look into the media center a uni to see if they can help me out with the camera.

Socially The japanese sociaty is looking up, The film nights a real laugh and its hellping me expand alittle, Warp Is as good as ever (ish) theres some dick there but he goes pretty early on so I get to talk to the two or three people that I really like and I get to be good at things.

GW is cool can't get to a vets yet but the staff are really nice even if all the regulars are from the north >.>

xD good times

ANOREXIA

[X] you have dry skin.
[X] you eat 1 meal. (yeah, but this is mostly lazyness)
[X] you're very weak.
[X] you hate your body.(always have always will)
[X] you starve yourself. (I'm not sure how to act with this one I probably do without thinking about it)
[X] you have low self esteem.
[ ] you use laxatives.
[X] you need to be more skinny. (want not need)
[X] people always say you're skinny, but you think fat.
[X] people think you are too skinny.

Total: 9 (didn't see that coming)

ADHD (ATTENTION DEFICIT/HYPERACTIVITY DISORDER)

[X] your mind is all over the place.
[ ] you are hyper most of the time.
[X] you barely pay attention to anything.
[ ] you cannot cooperate with people well.
[ ] you seem to never sit still.
[ ] you talk all the time.
[ ] you need attention 24/7.

Total: 2

BIPOLAR DISORDER

[X] you can act wild at times then the next day you are depressed.
[ ] you are very irritable. (like super no)
[X] you barely get any or no sleep. ( i blame that on my housemates at the moment)
[?] you are anti-social. (I try to be but i know I can be)
[ ] you have very high self esteem at times.
[ ] you are abusing alcohol, drugs, or sex. ( I may drink to much right now but I'm cutting down)
[X] you have thought of/attempted suicide. (its always on my mind)

Total: 3

BULIMA NERVOSA

[ ] you throw up all of your food.
[ ] you throw it up even when you don't feel sick.
[ ] you have no control over how you eat.
[ ] you use laxatives.
[ ] you have overly exercised to where you almost fainted/passed out.
[ ] you always say you are fat, when you aren't.
[X] people think you are way too skinny.

Total: 1

CONDUCT DISORDER

[ ] you are a bully.
[X] you threaten other people. (In a jokyish kinda way)
[ ] you often find yourself in fights. (make sandcastles not wars)
[ ] you have used a weapon that could cause injury to others.
[ ] you are cruel to humans and/or animals. (I've been childish to one or two people recently but I'm on the road to stopping)
[ ] you have raped/molested someone.
[ ] you destroy property on purpose.
[ ] you always lie.
[ ] you stay out all night.
[ ] you have ran away from home.

Total: 1

DEPRESSION

[ ] you are always sad. ( sad isn't the right word for it)
[ ] you find no hope in your future.
[ ] you find no longer excitement over the activities you used to love.
[X] you always find yourself around the house or in bed all day. (I just call that a internet Addiction)
[X] you can be/are anti-social.
[X] you have low self esteem. (comes from my feelings about my apperance)
[X] everything bad that happens is always your fault. ( I have pretty bad luck)
[ ] you always seem to be weak or have physical features hurt.
[ ] you are failing school.
[X] you have thought of/attempted suicide.
[ ] you have ran away from home.
[ ] hope is no longer there for you.

Total: 5 (more than I would have thougt)

OCD (OBSESSIVE COMPULSIVE DISORDER)

[X] you have daily rituals.
[X] you have disturbing thoughts or thoughts you hate.
[X] you have to do a certain thing until it feels right.
[X] you have to keep things in a certain order. (all my books, DVD, toys etc)
[ ] you have harmed yourself...
[ ] you are afraid you will get an STD, AIDS, or any kind of germs.(what ever i say)
[ ] you have to check some stuff over again.

Total: 4

PTSD (POST-TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER)

[ ] you repeatedly have flashbacks of horrible moments/memories in your life.
[ ] you repeatedly have dreams of horrible moments/memories in your life.
[ ] you sometimes think the event will happen again.
[X] you feel highly uncomfortable when remembered/remembering the event.( I imagine everyone does)
[X] you can be/are anti-social.
[ ] you have lost interest in the things you used to love.
[X] you have not had a lot of sleep lately.
[ ] you worry about dying at an early age or dying at all.
[ ] you can have angry outbursts.
[x] you act younger than your age. (yeah Its fun!)

Total: 4

SCHIZOPHRENIA

[X] you often have hallucinations.
[X] you have strange, unusual dreams or thoughts.
[X] you can be confused about reality and fantasy.
[X] you think people are always staring or talking about you.
[ ] you have extreme anxiety or fearfulness/panic attacks
[X] you have difficulty with relationships with family, friends, and opposite sex.
[ ] you do not take care of your hygiene like you should. ( I've gotten better)
[?] you are very shy. (depends)
[ ] you often talk to yourself (not that oftern)

Total: 5

ANOREXIA wow I didn't see that coming

...oh yeah dev meet that was fun.

I went to the Oxford botanical gardens on friday, It was great cool plants the guy talking to us was Canadian (i think thats cool enough to get a mention) and I've taken some of my best photos to date....

The anoying thing is I can't upload them to my laptop as I don't have the cable with me, and probably wont have it for about a month so if I'm not careful I will use up my memory space far to quickly...and in suck a lovely city its bound to happen >.<

On other news
unis going ok, I still feel alittle out of place and I'm not really funny anymore ...but on the upside I have heard the Final Countdown in 4 diffrent clubs so far which is win

The Emperor Protects

So its only ten to 12, the earliest I've been back in a while so i though a slightly drunk update would be good....oh yeah I'm so cool (not nearly drunk enough, everyone who I drank with left me TT.TT)

So first week of uni has gone by, I can't really say much about it...I havn't really made friends, I'm not at all sure about what my housemates think of me, and well I get the feeling I'm not comeing across to well to everyone I meet

Ok so i had the first Japanese Society meeting today, it was pretty bad everyone left early, I didn't really meet anyone that I really clicked with and well I just suck at socalising.

On a liughter note I've been ignoring texts from a certain someone which is kind of mean but she really did hurt me and I never wish to speak to her again....

Ok, ok on an actuall lighter not warp is on tomorrow and I'm so looking forward to it, Toys RPing and computrgames I might actually fit in, amd not creep out atractive women (theres so many at uni its scary)

thats pretty much it, I trust yopu all are having a good time and all


--The emperor protects--

So I've been avioding this for a while now but i guess I should comment on the whole DAmeet thing.
To help ease of reading (and to make it look like I've written more) I'm gona put down some bullet points

-Ok well you probably all know of the train in by this point, but a mention form me is probably needed....ok all i can say is that the train was crowded and well...that it really...

-the actuall meet was cool there was alot of wiredos and well I was one of them....my hyperness was abit anoying for me and probably other people (sorry) and well the other people geth the next point

-Ok people were fine, odd often younger than I expected but cool... if alittle creepy aswell...no offence but well >.>

-next was getting lost I point no fingers but it may have been partially.....my fault I always seemed to go away from where the group was actually sat so let this be a lesson to you all never lison to me ever

-Just lol at the naruto akatsuki cos[players (no offence but you people are real wired)

-then other shinanigans

-stuff

-yeah i'm to lazy


Ok other stuff comic well sorry I'm just not funny on paper, I'm so looking forward to uni, new people, new room....massive acceptable drunkeness...and well thats all so goodbye

The Emperor Protects

ps new photos.....
....maybe